I was born again because of your love, but I died of the same reason-One sided love

I was born again because of your love, but I died of the same reason-One sided love

Was it so as i thought

‘Knowing that those big brown eyes won’t be looking into mine, kills me.’

“Sometimes I wonder was that all just hallucination or something more than just hallucination. Those feelings, the feeling of being in love though one sided. That abrupt rise in heartbeats whenever she came in front of me, whenever she spoke to me. Well that was very less frequent event.

one sided love

one sided love

‘I love dreaming, because in my dreams, you’re actually mine.’

Many a times I guess it was just the case of hormonal imbalance . I was not mature enough then to differentiate between love and hallucination. Now I guess  I am in a condition to be able to differentiate but then why am I writing all this. Why do I need to justify myself that it was just hallucination and not love. I don’t know why I have to see her picture now when she is gone from my life. I guess, maybe be because it was not a perfect hallucination may be it was a little bit of love too just from my end but it was beautiful.  That feeling of loving someone , that feeling of wanting to do anything for someone who does not even belong to you.

‘I tried to hate you but the only thing I hated is how much I loved you.’

This is called a one sided love because when you love someone. It’s not assured that we’d receive the same from the other as in this case the hurt of rejection is less. I guess unconditional love is what we call true love. Maybe she might return, maybe she is not gone. The world is quite small you see, but I guess I should stop thinking shit and concentrate on my work.”

“Sometimes love is not enough and the road gets tough i don’t know why.”